Finally Coming Home...

l     It has been almost a year since I've seen his face up close, the last time i did the face was sad with teary eyes. It was at the airport, the day he left for work abroad. That time I remember there were those kissing, some exchanging tight warm embraces before their love ones bids goodbye to work in some other country far from ours. I believe each of us were having the same feeling at that very moment, but of all the people there, we were the only ones with teary eyes. Probably because we know we will be million of miles apart from each other, and him not being able to see and be with his little boy for quite some time makes him even more teary eyed.

     To be apart from him was quite hard at the beginning, i guess even up to now i feel the same. Days, weeks, months have passed since that day. I have been living and taking care of our kid by myself, yes it's hard but that’s no big deal. What’s even bigger is the longingness i feel. I begin to miss everything about him, from what he usually do, his habbits, his irritating snores when he sleeps, his slight yabang at times, his sweetness, times when we go malling, times when i easilly get irritated with the things he does, wala na'kong mapagalitan. I miss him playing with our little man, even our son misses their ‘kilitian’ time. I even miss his appetite, and just him being here is what I miss the most. I guess i'm just used to with how we were before, having him here all the time, doing things and all with him, arguing and laughing with him. There were days when i feel a bit envy when I see a family, may it be at the mall, at my son's school, at the office, or just whenever i see one. I often have this thought in me that if only what we earned here would do then I definitely won't allow him to leave, then we could be the usual happy family like before, like the others. Though i didn't say that we're not a happy family now, we are and definitely we will be as always. It's just the 'not physically together', being apart, that's making the whole happy thing incomplete. 

 

     But with all of these, i feel relieved and even more excited with the thought that a couple of months from now hubby will finally have his vacation and at long last be coming home. Having him here again, and be with us even for just a month is more than enough and worth the wait. I’m just thankful, happy, contented and blessed with a responsible and loving hubby, a good father to our kid as well.

     Can’t wait...